the end

Had two presentations today. I thought i screwed eoc up. I should have wrote cue cards. Damm. Econs went well though. Anyway i’m not interested to explain the details. And i guess you won’t be interested to read it either.

So, anyway before econs presentation(the teacher was late as usual) we had a photo taking session. Joan wanted to take a group picture ’cause we were all dressed up to the nines, with our blazers and everything. Then suddenly everybody’s like so enthusiastic about it. Hurrying to be part of the picture. And sammy is one lucky man. Haha.. everyone’s like dying to take a picture with him. Not only that he’s so fortunate he has 3 ladies(joan, diyana and me) to help him wear his tie and blazer. All he has to do is to stand there. Haa… And so, the digi cam went clicking away till the batt is low. =) Feels like graduation.

Exams are around the corner. But not until i have had my eoc ica5 and i&wt frontpage ica. I think the frontpage test will be the cause of my downfall. I feel least prepared for the main exam but yet i wanna get over and done with it asap. Urgh… what contradiction within me. Life has been good to me so far. Able to pass my icas with fairly good results even not much effort been put into revision. Hope the exam would be a breeze. HOPE. I’ve been getting pretty much motivation talks from lijuan. Not much effect seen. Guess the lazy, non-studious me still resides in me all these years. I’ve calculated. We’ll have 18 days left to spend time with each other, and thereafer we’ll be going on our own seperate ways. Pretty sad. I don’t like to make new friends. I hate socialising. And thank God, i was in the right frame of mind when doing the course selection. Placed CRM as my 4th choice.

So, after lesson had eoc ica5 meeting. Before frawley came, lijuan n i were having a little talk. *wink* Kinda feel sorry about that thing lijuan. But there’s nothing i can do about it =( Anyhow, she shared her ideas for the ica. It was hilarious and i love it. Then frawley came in, more ideas and we were 1/2 discussing 1/2 laughing.

Oh ya, just downloaded the frontpage from CMS. Took a glance at all of them and i realise i don’t understand a shit. I’m such a fool for not listening in class. Damm! Anyone out there wanna save me?

Pretty wordy entry. Will update pictures we took asap when i get hold of it. =)
Till then!~

Oh i almost forgot. Add on to my previous post.
One thing i really enjoyed in the lab was drawing on lijuan’s arm. Wahahahaha
I really love drawing on her arm. LOL. And she was sporty cause she let me draw as much as i want. =D

Here’s one of my masterpieces:

ock = old chang kee.

=))

aloha!

Joan reminded me that it’s been a long time since i updated my blog. Been busy you see. So much projects to do, i don’t even have time to blink my eyes.

Got back my accounts ica. Pretty satisfactory since not much hard work has been put in. Will do better for exams. Anyway tomorrow there will be 2 presentations for me, eoc and econs. Think i would more or less screw up one of them.

Oh ya, joan has been pestering me to get ipod mini. Really tempting. But i still think it’s quite a hassle to bring one more extra item around. Anyway, ipod is great. Joan uploaded alot of nice songs in there. *drools*

And we(diyana, lijuan, shiying, wendy and i) took some pictures in the lab. Here goes:

This is one stupid picture. I forgot who suggest the finger thing. But we were supposed to do the numbering of B1, B2, B3 and B4. Hey, we should all wear yellow or pajamas next time and pose the same way!!
Left to right: shiying, jiaxin, wendy, lijuan

I think this picture is hilarious. Look at diyana(far left). She look darn funny. I couldn’t stop laughing whenever i see this.

“It’s a bird.” “No, it’s a plane.” “No, it’s superman!”

Nothing much to update actually. Boring life i have. Exams are near. I feel good and bad about it at the same time. That’s all. Gonna practice my speech and get ready to go out. =D

This post is meant for someone really special. My buddy Lijuan!!
I don’t know this is the how many time I’ve thanked you. But nvm, I’m gonna do it again. =)

Anyway this girl is amazing. She’s really a good friend. Good friends are those who give unconditionally. Yea, she is one real good friend. So understanding and so kind.

Since last semester she’s been helping me out a lot on my projects (I’ve been less dependent on her now though. But not completely! Haa..), reminding me to bring stuffs, due dates etc… listening to me whine (I don’t know if she like to hear me whine. I guess not. But I can’t help it. I feel that she’s the only one I can whine too. It’s a privileged you know?), helping me out during exam period (staying on the phone with me until I solve the problem), and tolerate my nonsense and dumbness (which I’m very grateful for). What more can I ask for?

She’s my advisor too. Advise me on all sorts of stuff. I like the non-nonsensical talks we have. Talking about life, our own theories etc… She’s really good at that. If you ever get to talk about such matters with her, you’ll find her simply astounding. I love her

She’s a great listener. Thanks alot.. for hearing me whine just now. I was really bothered by some matters.

Hey Lijuan, thanks for being there all the time. Whether I’m in trouble or I’m in a bad mood. Really very thankful for that. Even though sometimes we don’t talk much, you presence makes things feel better. =)
XIE XIE NI !!!!!!!!!!
*I’ve got lots of things to say. But I really cannot stand the condition I’m in now. Gotta bathe. Byeee~

shoot!

Haven’t been updating my blog for quite some time. Been busy you see. Anyway, I had my stats ica yesterday. I would say that the test went well. Quite confident of scoring. But yesterday wasn’t a very nice day though. Had project meeting for eoc ica4. Was quite lost on what to do. So my group was progressing slowly under my guidance. Luckily everything is more or less completed. Kinda please with myself.

Alright, as for today’s blog there’s nothing much. Attended student leader seminar. PRetty boring but enriching. Actually i’m starting to realise that NYP is not that bad afterall. NOt that it is good. Just not as bad as i thought it is. Beside the atrocious toilet conditions, semi-infested with cockroaches and illogically operated escalator… NYP is not that bad.

Been working on my project since i got home. Time is frickin’ tight. I still have econs ica4 and eoc ica5 to work on. Both presentations. *yucks* Seriously, i only have 1/2 an idea on econs project. I cannot believe that we are not allowed to use powerpoint. This is stupidity. Transparency will be so… eeew. As for eoc ica5, i think i’ve got a rough idea how i want it. IF applicable.

I hope this semester ends quickly. Can’t wait to get done with the exams. Really really wish for a good break now.

tired~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!

My day in school was not that bad. Cleared 2 important ICAs. Relieved.

Had accounts ica early in the morning. The test went well. I think i should get minimum 90% correct. But i know i’ll make careless mistake. Somehow, somewhere there will be a mistake. Maybe i’ll get 80%? Whatever it is i’m still lucky ’cause i didn’t practice much. For the test preparation i only tried to understand my mistakes and clear my doubts for some areas.

For eoc lesson got back results for ica3. Pretty satisfactory. Didn’t expect much out of it either. It’s just not my module. I hope we were still taking ews. Whatever~Shut up Jiaxin!

Then I&WT lesson was another ica. It went smoothly overall. But i was satisfied with my work. I think there are quite a few stupid mistakes. There goes the good grades. But it was alright too. I’m a girl. Not guy. Girls aren’t suppose to be extremely good in this area. Hehe
Lijuan brought some new year goodies for me to eat. nice! =) thnxs! And don’t get so upset. I don’t know how to comfort u seriously. Having alot of troubles coping with school.. can’t think much for anyone now. Argh…..i’m such a useless friend. Dammit.

Can’t blog any further. Feeling super tired. Haven’t got this kind of feeling since last semester. And it’s hitting me real bad.

=)

^^Happy Valentine’s Day^^
Gotta keep this entry short.
NOthing much about lectures. Craping with lijuan, shiying and cheryl. Nice day overall.
Saw angeline today in school. Real glad to see her. So we talked a little and i hugged her before we parted. BEst wishes to you Angeline!

My gift. =D Courier to my house. While i was washing the dishes. Haha..
Sender? Secret…. hahahahahaha..

Very nice. I like it. Thanks alot.
Only 2 shots. Need to bury myself in the books already. Revision is BAD. =’(

And the base keep runnin’ runnin’, and runnin’ runnin’, and runnin’ runnin’, and runnin’ runnin’, and…

Let’s start with a make up entry for yesterday. Ignore if you are not interested. It’s full of shit.

Had steamboat at my house yesterday. Invited the usual 3, joan and johnny too. Daddy invited uncle roger and someone(forgot his name). Sister invited elaine and evelyn. Those two again. I think they love my house. Always staying in my house past 12 or staying over.

Woke up at 8.30am to do marketing with mummy. I hate the market seriously. It’s wet, smelly and full of bargaining aunties. So anyway, i was cleaning the house for like 3hrs non-stop.

So, the adults ate the steamboat first while jx, ka, joan and me waited for lijuan to come. When lijuan arrived the adults are still eating. So we played a little game. Joan taught us. Pretty fun. I mean VERY FUN. hahaha.. it’s all abt sabotaging. At first the penalty was to eat the no. of love letters assigned. Then there i was getting myself into trouble. I never expect myself to have the smallest card. Haa.. so I got it. But I didn’t eat. Whatever.. Later on we changed the penalty to touching milo. Ahh.. yes you’ve guessed it right. The penalty is specially designed for lijuan. Wahahaha.. it’s damm thrilling to see her get the smallest card. And so she had to touch MIlo. =D AND SHE DID! SHE DID IT! Hey lijuan, you are very brave. =) Just after 3 visits you have manage to curb 1/2 of your phobia of dogs. Come more often then maybe one day you’ll be petting milo spontaneously.

Ok so, we move on to eat dinner. Yes.. I didn’t eat much but i cooked for lijuan. I only like to cooking part of steamboat. I think i ate vegetables only and some meat. The hot dog was horrible. I never like processed food. Taste WEIRD. I don’t know why i ate it in the first place. But kang an like it. Hahaha

After eating everyone was playing… cards and mahjong. I walk around looking at them play. I didn’t know everyone can play mahjong. Except lijuan and me. So we were stoning there.. luckily Elaine got a DVD on mean girls. So we watched it. The show is nice ‘cause everyone stop their game and watch. =) Hey kang an, I never watch DVD before ok. Can’t blame me for asking why there is only 1 disc and not pressing play twice. HUMPH!

Ate my second round of steamboat after the show. Lijuan, Johnny and sister joined. So Johnny, the magician, was showing off his tricks. Haha.. And poor guy, lijuan exposed 1/3 of them. But it’s nice. Amazed me. 

Too many things happened. All in all it’s fun.

Alright, for today’s entry. Nothing. Haha.. kidding! Complete my management project today. *Phew* If not joan would kill me tomorrow. Hahaha.. Anyway the rest of my day was a total waste. Did nothing at all. I shouldn’t have taken leave. Way too off track. Hopeless me. Arghhh..

God bless lijuan’s brother. Hope he gets well soon =) Cheer up girl, he’ll be just fine.

kaBoom! arghh!! woof!

Ahh. Relatively nice day today~ Except for EOC lesson. Didn’t really enjoy every bit of it. So i had stats tutorial.

Got back stats results today. Which was a total disaster. But it’s my fault. For not studying hard enough. For not doing my tutorials. dammit. I’m really one heck of a lousy student. Having second thoughts of going to University.

Stayed back after school for don’t know what reason. Anyway, i think i need to get in tune fast. Still in the off mode. My brain is getting a’lil rusty. Can’t think much. I still have frickin’ management powerpoint to complete and I’m way behind time. Things don’t look good this time round. Like i said, lady luck doesn’t stay forever. I’ve this bad premonition.. somehow or rather i just have this very strong feeling. This semester is going to a hell of a disaster for me. I think i can’t catch up on alot of things. Why does things work this way? When i decide to do it well, it gets so hard.

Just now mummy told me that my stats results is good enough. Don’t stress myself. The problem is that if others can do well, why can’t i? I’m not stupid. I know. Just lazy. But i can’t help it if it’s in the genes. Hehe. Arggh… Maybe my parents right, studying makes me sad. I should go back to the past when i’m happier, away from the books. But what will lie in the future?

I used to think that the world is beautiful. That people are great, kind and truthful. Naive eh? No. It’s partly because of the environment i’m brought up in and my character. Most kids spend their weekend shopping with their parents. They get so stucked in the concrete jungle. And somehow they enojy it. But this enjoyment won’t last forever. Because once you take away this concrete jungle of theirs, they’ll never survive in the nature. But not me. I never love the concrete jungle much. My parents bring me to farms, nature reserves etc when i’m young. And i like it alot. I get to experience alot of things, which are amazing. And somehow, this cultivate the “love the nature” thing in me. Maybe that is why I’m very much of an introvert. I never like to talk much but i enjoy listening to people(just like i listen to the forest). And from there, i make my judgement about them. You can know alot about a person just by the way they talk!
But i get to see the real truth since i entered poly. Lots of ugly truth i wished i never knew. People turning ugly just because of grades. People back-stabbing for don’t know what sake. People fighting over lame stuff. People accusing. People putting on fake smiles. And that’s not the end. Yucks! It’s a total turn off.

If i can, i wish i can just live in my very own world. Where there are no ugly people around. When i say ugly, i don’t mean the facial features of a person. I’m refering to their nature. Anyway, back to my own world. Yes, there i’ll have friends that i like. Friends that i find true. Real friends. That gotta be a dog in this world now. Haha.. only a dog can be true to you. Loyal and faithful. A dog never lie. And they never argue. And they never once think that you are stupid. They do stupid acts with you. How much better can it get when you have a friend like this? Say when you scold him “you’re a pig” and he doesn’t fight back. I love it! haha.
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Got this off friendster:

Message:
Spell your name and copy what each letter
signifies about your personality. Then, send
this to a whole bunch of people you know!

A – You can be very quiet when you have
something on your mind
B – You are always cautious when it comes to
meeting new people.
C – You definitely have a partier side in you,
dont be shy to show it.
D- you have trouble trusting people
E – You are a very exciting person.
F – Everyone loves you.
G – You have excellent ways of viewing
people.
H – You are not judgemental.
I – You are always smiling & making others
smile.
J – Jealousy.
K – You like to try new things.
L – Love is something you deeply believe in.
M – Success comes easily to you.
N – You like to work, but you always want a
break
O – You are very open-minded.
P – You are very friendly and understanding.
Q – You are a hypocrite.
R – You are a social butterfly.
S – You are very broad-minded.
T – You have an attitude, a big one.
U – You feel like you have to equal up to
people’s standards.
V – You have a very good physical and looks.
W – You like your privacy .
X – You never let people tell you what to do
Y – You cause a lot of trouble.
Z – You’re always fighting with someone
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So, let’s see:

J – Jealousy. (I beg to differ)
I – You are always smiling & making others
smile.
A – You can be very quiet when you have
something on your mind
X – You never let people tell you what to do
I – You are always smiling & making others
smile.
N – You like to work, but you always want a
break.

Hey!! It’s super true. Really reflects me well. I think description A and N suits me best. =D

confused

Feeling mixed up right now.

I don’t know what’s going on in my mind.

Everything is rushing in.

Everything.

My priorities, my studies, my results, my r/s.

And there i am, pushing them out.

I don’t want to think.

I don’t wish to think.

I don’t want to understand.

I don’t wish to understand.

I wish i’m emotionless.

I really wish i am.

But what is a human w/o emotions?

Would God create someone w/o emotions?

The answer is Yes.

If not, explain the war, the murders etc.

Why would man go around killing each other if they had emotions?

The answer is No.

So if He could create a man w/o emotions, why didn’t he make me emotionless?

Why not me?

I wish i could put everything to an end.

Erase everything.

Wipe everything out of my mind.

But i can’t.

Reason being i’m powerless.

God made me powerless.

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Feeling much better now.

I’m a confused person at times.

Chill friends!

Enjoy your celebrations~