isolation

sometimes it feels as if i’m working in India. So hard to meet up with the people i used to hang out with. But luckily they still text messages to me or drop me a call. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ~

just leave

they came back to me last night. i swear to god all of them. it was scary, as though i had to relived those moments again. this whole episode were things that i wished i never knew of nor went through. and it had to all come back again. i woke up. took a deep breath, and tried getting back to sleep.

i lost count of the number of times i yawned today.

sometimes when some things hurt you bad enough, time ain’t gonna be of any help.

whatever. bye!

let’s walk

went to satay club for dinner/supper with my colleagues. didn’t really ate much though. what pisses me off is the toilet attendant who insisted my colleagues and i had to pay 20 cents whereas all other people can go in for free.

took a long walk with brown after eating. ended up at PSA building.. near cantonment road i guess. sometimes it’s nice to take long walks in the middle of the night with your friend. no one, no distractions, talk about random subjects. we should all try new/dumb things when we’re young, shouldn’t we? Took a cab to furama hotel and sat inside while waiting for my parents. anyway the hotel chair is really comfy.

ah work tml again.

things i’m glad i did today:

1. had a long chat with wan qiu & wenD
2. took a long walk with brown

say hi to kodi

say hi to my newest family member:

i can’t wait for his arrival

…

it’s a bad day. i need comfort hug.

something to note about

Suddenly milo seems….

… to look a’lil bigger
… heavier than before
… and his coat isn’t that soft

Ok. You got to understand that i’m seeing small things everyday.
From tubiflex worm (smallest) to puppies (biggest)

For a moment i feel that life is dull now. All the damn posts about work. They all seem so boring. Life is interestingly boring. (:

just some fucking crap shit to let go

sometimes i hate the way i am, the way things turn out, the way i got nothing that i’ve fought for

just sometimes.. that happens most of the time. usually.

my colleague: you are putting too much pressure on yourself
me: am i ?

for that moment i was elated, then i slowly sank back into reality.. that what i was offered wasn’t really what i want. and the whole emo thing starts again.

FUCK