is this yours?

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this is your secret isn’t it, lijuan? lol!

christian the lion

To those jaded people out there, like myself, here’s some love.

i haven’t seen a smile so genuine before. and i’m not ashamed to admit that i cried watching this. *starts imagining milo hugging me 30years down the road when he sees me* aww.

isn’t it strange when you happen to see someone you haven’t seen for ages on the street, and both parties starts pretending they don’t know each other. god.

i’m pretty sure that if milo and i had a conversation, it’d be like this:

baby, you know life hasn’t been turning out the way i want it to. and you leaving isn’t making it any better. sometimes i hate you. i hate you for leaving when i needed you the most. if you could hear me, this what i’ve gotta say: “milo, you bastard.”

claire, i’m sorry that i ain’t comforting you when you needed me the most. but you hardly gave me any hugs, hardly brought me out for walks, hardly kiss me these days. you hardly even take a look at me! you probably didn’t noticed that i’ve aged, and my frail body couldn’t take it anymore. if you could hear me, this is what i’ve gotta say: “i still love you anyways.”

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you taught me that it’s ok to love unconditionally.

do you believe in birthday wishes?

i always laugh (secretly) at birthday parties when the birthday boy/girl is in the midst of making a wish. how silly! (of them, of course) i usually hate it when i’m made to make a wish, knowing that they’ll never come true. else, explain the “fantastic grades” i’ve been getting, and all the not-so-hot dates lining up, as well as the 3 digit figure in the bank.

god. sometimes i wish i could behave like a normal kid and make a fucking wish in hope that some fairy(hopefully scantily dressed) would grant my wish, no matter how ridiculous it is. maybe i should start believing. and perhaps when i wish you were here this year, it’ll come true. won’t it? silly.

random note: it’s weird that i now hate the weather that i used to love. nostalgic.

a tale about a girl and her dog. seen from both perspective.

today’s a good day. no reasons why.  but today’s a good day.

I AM GAY

against all odds

How can I just let you walk away
Just let you leave without a trace
When I stand here taking every breath with you
You’re the only one
Who really knew me at all

How can you just walk away from me
When all I can do is watch you leave
‘Cause we’ve shared the laughter and the pain
And even shared the tears
You’re the only one
Who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now
‘Cause there’s just an empty space
There’s nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face
So take a look at me now
‘Cause there’s just an empty space
And you coming back to me, is against the odds
And that’s what I’ve got to face

I wish I could just make you turn around
Turn around and see me cry
There’s so much I need to say to you
So many reasons why
You’re the only one
Who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now
‘Cause there’s just an empty space
There’s nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face
So Take a look at me now
Cause there’s just an empty space
But to wait for you is
All I can do
And that’s what I’ve got to face.
Take a good look at me now
‘Cause l’ll still be standing
And you coming back to me is against all odds
That’s the chance I’ve got to take

Yeah
Take A look at me now

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One track on repeat. I still think of you.

“love shouldn’t hurt”

i forgot where i got this phrase from, but yea, love shouldn’t hurt.

if a married man can screw another man outside,

what are the chances of a man not fucking a woman outside?