i don’t know why, when i wrote my resume, i feel so torn inside me. courage took at long vacation leave.

crazy practice

why would they want to do that? yikes.

white is the new black!

gosh, how do you resist such a cute lil thing? His name is, Benshiva White Is The New Black. So adorable.

i want a bc. :’(

maybe all of you can give me a bc on my birthday.

A Good Dog: The Story of Orson, Who Changed My Life

(the ratings on Amazon is 3.5 because some felt that the decision to put the dog down is wrong. However, i give this book 4 stars.)

“People who love dogs often talk about a ‘lifetime’ dog. I’d heard the phrase a dozen times before I came to recognize its significance. Lifetime dogs are dogs we love in especially powerful, sometimes inexplicable ways.” – Jon Katz

In this gripping and deeply touching book, bestselling author Jon Katz tells the story of his lifetime dog, Orson: a beautiful border collie–intense, smart, crazy, and unforgettable.

From the moment Katz and Orson meet, when the dog springs from his traveling crate at Newark airport and panics the baggage claim area, their relationship is deep, stormy, and loving. At two years old, Katz’s new companion is a great herder of school buses, a scholar of refrigerators, but a dud at herding sheep. Everything Katz attempts– obedience training, herding instruction, a new name, acupuncture, herb and alternative therapies–helps a little but not enough, and not for long. “Like all border collies and many dogs,” Katz writes, “he needed work. I didn’t realize for some time I was the work Orson would find.”

While Katz is trying to help his dog, Orson is helping him, shepherding him toward a new life on a two-hundred-year-old hillside farm in upstate New York. There, aided by good neighbors and a tolerant wife, hip-deep in sheep, chickens, donkeys, and more dogs, the man and his canine companion explore meadows, woods, and even stars, wade through snow, bask by a roaring wood stove, and struggle to keep faith with each other. There, with deep love, each embraces his unfolding destiny.

A Good Dog is a book to savor. Just as Orson was the author’s lifetime dog, his story is a lifetime treasure–poignant, timeless, and powerful.

A Dog Year: Rescuing Devon, the Most Troublesome Dog in the World

When Jon Katz takes in a young troubled border collie, his calm, sedate life will never be the same again. Jon and his wife live in a New Jersey suburb with two perfectly behaved Labradors. Then into the mix comes Devon, who creates havoc from the moment he arrives at the airport, when it takes Jon, two baggage handlers and three police officers to track him down after he escapes. Jon learns the hard way how to encourage Devon to behave. But amongst the difficulties of their first year together, Jon discovers his life is enlivened by a creature with so much mischievousness and joie de vivre. In fact, Jon finds that he is to change as much as Devon. By turns insightful, hilarious and deeply moving, “A Dog Year” is a delightful true story of the age-old bond between man and dog.

Marley and Me

John and Jenny were just beginning their life together. They were young and in love, with a perfect little house and not a care in the world. Then they bought home Marley, a wiggly yellow fur ball of a puppy. Life would never be the same. Marley quickly grew into a barrelling, ninety-seven pound steamroller of a Labrador retriever, a dog like no other. He crashed through screen doors, gouged through drywall, flung drool on guests, stole women’s undergarments, and ate nearly everything he could get his mouth around, including couches and fine jewellery. Obedience school did no good – Marley was expelled. And yet Marley’s heart was pure. Just as he joyfully refused any limits on his behaviour, his love and loyalty were boundless, too. Marley shared the couple’s joy at their first pregnancy, and their heartbreak over the miscarriage. He was there when babies finally arrived and when the screams of a seventeen-year-old stabbing victim pierced the night. The heartwarming and unforgettable story of a family in the making and the wondrously neurotic dog who taught them what really matters in life.

A Friend Like Henry

This is the inspiring account of a family’s struggle to break into their son’s autistic world – and how a dog made the real difference. Dale was still a baby when his parents realised that something wasn’t right. Worried, his mother Nuala took him to see several doctors, before finally hearing the word ‘autism’ for the first time in a specialist’s office. (Autism wasn’t very recognized back then) Scared but determined that Dale should live a fulfilling life, Nuala describes her despair at her son’s condition, her struggle to prevent Dale being excluded from a ‘normal’ education and her sense of hopeless isolation. Dale’s autism was severe and violent and family life was a daily battleground.

But the Gardner’s lives were transformed when they welcomed a gorgeous Golden Retriever into the family. The special bond between Dale and his dog Henry helped them to produce the breakthrough in Dale they had long sought. From taking a bath to saying ‘I love you’, Henry helped introduce Dale to all the normal activities most parents take for granted, and set him on the road to being the charming and well-adjusted young man he is today.

This is a heartrending and fascinating account of how one devoted and talented dog helped a little boy conquer his autism.

我一直不断告诉自己要坚强。告诉自己每天都要开心。告诉自己要笑。让这一切成为美好的回忆。 但是我还是做不到。过了8个月10天，我还是依然想你， 惦记着你。想你的叫声。想你的味道。 想你对我说‘对不起’的拥抱。想你的温暖。想你小舌头添我的感觉。想你的呼吸声。想你兴奋的心跳。想你那不停摇动的小尾巴。想你奔跑的脚步声。想你傻傻的表情。

你呢？你好吗？还是一样的调皮吗？想我吗？

这8个月10天几乎每晚都想着你的日子一点也不好过。我真的尽力了。

我知道看了只会伤心。我告诉我自己不要在看了。 但是还是忍不住看了。 应为我害怕。 害怕我会忘记。。会忘记你。因为这短片带给我很多回忆。我们的回忆。因为看了之后才能感觉到你的存在。

这短片让我感到惭愧。感到内疚。为什么。为什么我为了追求人生的其他目标而忽略了你。为什么我没多拍拍你。为什么不多给你个拥抱。为什么不抽出一些时间带你去海边。为什么。为什么当天出门前不多看你一眼。为什么不说声我爱你。为什么不说声谢谢。 为什么不说声等我回来。

为什么。究竟是为什么。

为什么不等等我。为什么老实步的那么快。你在急什么。 还是不明白为什么不等我回来。这样一声不响的离去。为什么。

其实我很想。。。很想对你说声对不起。真的对不起。但却了没机会。

“how do you view life?”

someone asked me a question, “how do you view life?”

what went through my mind was:

fucked up

-pause-

life is a waste of time.

at the end of the day, you lose whatever you’ve gained.

the more you gain the more you lose.

when the time is up, everything reduces to nothing.

you don’t even know where you’ll be.

maybe you might just be brought to another phrase of “life”

and start this silly cycle again.

so why try so hard?

—

i think i’ve finally realised why it is passion that i work for.

Noah’s Ark CARES

Guys, i’m making a trip down to Noah’s Ark next saturday. if you have any of the following items to donate, please let me know and i’ll pick them up from you

http://www.noahsarklodge.com/

http://www.noahsarkcares.com/

General
*Dog Ear Cleaner
*Shampoo (Rein Biotech buy 1 get 1 free)
*Revolution or Frontline (For tick and flea control)

Medical
*Saline
*Gauze
*Cotton Wool (Roll)
*Sutures (Medium & Small)
*Syringes and Needles (Medium & Small)

Supplements
*Calcium
*Milk Thistle
*Triflex
*Glucosamine+Chondroitin (Geriatric animals)
*Omega 3 & 6
*Fish oil
*Pycnogenol (For animals with cancer)
*Vitamin B, D, E
*Esther C
*Chlorella
*Echinacea
*CoEnzyme Q10

Miscellaneous
*Agility Equipment
*Dettol
*Clean old towels
*Stuffed toys
*Old Newspapers
*Old Baseballs, Football,s Basketballs
*Old Frisbees
*Garbage Bags
*Floor Detergent
*Dish-washing liquid
*Mops
*Buckets
*Brooms
*Brush w/ long handle (for scrubbing floors)
*Paint for Kennel Metal and Wood